tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-105998692011-04-22T12:50:36.394+08:00normal....maybe same with u stucking in love paradox . 小鬼的腦袋瓜http://www.blogger.com/profile/05443962532655596706noreply@blogger.comBlogger251100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10599869.post-1144605002565152052006-04-10T01:44:00.000+08:002006-04-10T01:50:02.576+08:00<span style="color:#ccffff;">你會放棄，我知道，也預想得到</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">但我總是害怕，我害怕我還沒準備好去重新付出</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">我害怕我還收不回已放下的心</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">我害怕我又要面臨一次與你的分離</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">我害怕..........所以遲疑</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">我是個極度缺乏安全感的人，所以外表看起來那麼樣獨立與強悍</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">過去的不開心回憶，把我的心趕到好遠的地方去</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">就算我知道自己是在乎你，我就是沒有勇氣</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">我不想因為你的軟弱逼自己作出決定</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">我想找回當初想愛你的熱情</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">所以我選擇順從自己的心</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">若對你是一種殘酷的折磨</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">原諒我！</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10599869-114460500256515205?l=bewithdipity.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>小鬼的腦袋瓜http://www.blogger.com/profile/05443962532655596706noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10599869.post-1141913913552818402006-03-09T22:10:00.003+08:002006-03-09T22:21:58.143+08:00<span style="color:#ffcccc;">因為妮，我更喜歡JAY的歌<br />因為妮，我開始喜歡英國<br />因為妮，我覺得足球是種很帥很高貴的運動<br />因為妮妮，我覺得偶爾的名牌不是罪過<br />因為妮，我對生活的態度更隨性<br />因為妮，我才發現原來男生穿西裝可以那麼好看<br />因為妮，我發現原來白目可以白目的很可愛<br />因為妮妮，我對鹿港及台北土城多了份親切感<br />因為妮，我重拾了童心，卡通與公仔<br />因為妮，我喜 歡上BIORE FOR MEN 還有海倫仙度絲<br />因為妮，我喜歡因你而有所改變的生活<br />因為妮，覺得很幸福<br />因為妮，大手裡的香氣......在我心裡久久散不去 </span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10599869-114191391355281840?l=bewithdipity.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>小鬼的腦袋瓜http://www.blogger.com/profile/05443962532655596706noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10599869.post-1141902203535747582006-03-09T17:55:00.000+08:002006-03-09T21:37:00.343+08:00<span style="color:#ffff00;"> ~我不知道，從中午收到信，看到你的布落格<br />回想我們之間的一切從頭到尾.....到現在回到家之前這段的時間，我都沒有讓眼淚块堤<br />是怎麼辦到的？<br />現在我回家了，可以開始我想對你講的話了，也不需要再忍了～淚水或許可以讓我更看清我們之間的問題<br />其實，從研一開始認識你，就喜歡你了，我一直沒有對你承認.....因為我自己也覺得，那麼輕易就喜歡一個人好像太隨便了<br />接下來，總是繞在你身旁，不斷找機會，裝熟也好，雞婆也好，只想你能對我放下多一點戒心<br />但每次回到了家，又開始怪自己，真是無聊又可笑<br />............. 我想你已很習慣我在你身邊<br />一直到你喜歡上我，直到去年的暑假開始的愛情，我很驚喜也很患得患失，因為我沒想到有一天，我主動喜歡的男生也會喜歡上我，對我而言是從未發生過的事<br />所以我期待，所以我珍惜，也要求這份愛情的品質<br />是我過份期待嗎？我不知道<br />如果問我，初戀是什麼時侯，我會說是在05年的夏天，因為這是我第一次真正愛一個人，<br />但是漸漸，我發覺一段感情，不是光愛情就足夠的，它包括二人的生活及相處，<br />若二人的生活不斷產生磨擦，那麼愛情也會被磨得貧乏<br />在我選擇對你冷淡前，我總不斷包容，因為我想你會改變，<br />我當然知道你從頭到尾都沒變，因為不管是好的還是壞的你都沒變.....<br /><br />你對我很少有讚美，就算是讚美也是用消極及負面的話語，當我開心為你做些事或是做些自己想做的事情時，鮮少聽到你正面的鼓勵或是打氣，都是一些負面的子句，<br />當我聽了不開心擺臭臉時，你不是說我愛生氣就是說你只是開開玩笑而已，沒什麼了不起<br />當下我聽起來，又覺得是自己錯了，所以一次又一次，不斷的重覆同樣的事件及老問題 ， 其實我真的只是需要你幾句哄哄的甜言蜜語<br /><br />你很好，疼我，我知道，你覺得好吃的東西會留給我，你覺得好看的東西會告訴我，你覺得是好的都不會忘了我，但你常常忘了去觀察我聆聽我的感受，我也喜歡你這樣疼我，但，一段愛情要有不斷的溝通才能創造無數次的感動，你總吝於溝通......<br />當你覺得不開心時，就是躲起來，就是消失...就是無語...你總跳過溝通而自己給自己一個結論，沒有想要問原由，沒有想到事情的真相，沒有想到我是不是也這麼想 ，就放我一個人，逃開<br /><br />對你，我一直沒變過的是無怨與無悔，因為我知道我很愛你，<br />不管再怎麼氣你，看到你的表情，看到你想躲起來的樣子，我就投降了...<br /><br />但是漸漸，我覺得自己生悶氣的次數越來越多，因為你為我著想得實在太少，我為我和你著想的我自認不少，不成比例的.....讓我自己時常瀕於崩潰的局面<br />你在002,面對的只有我和你，我在研究室，面對的是來往的人群包括有心人和無心人，還有顧及你的一切，當然還有自私一點的我自己<br />我不喜歡說謊，所以我一直心理上有些不平衡，因為跟你在一起的每一天我都在說謊，跟你在一起，言語和動作也特別小心，我不想別人對我們指指點點的猜疑 ，對你對我都不好<br /><br />常常看到小華和明林，他們為什麼可以那麼勇敢光明正大，我們不行，我自問我可不可以<br />如果你能給我那一般的勇氣，我也可以<br />但是，一直以來，你都是比我害羞的人，怕你被欺負怕你被拗，替你著急的是我居多<br />所以那是一份我目前都感到遺憾的勇氣， 我也想被保護，也想很軟弱，一切只要都聽你決定就好<br /><br />很抱歉，好像一直數落你的不是.....<br />但我只想再把心底的問題再說一次，我希望這只是個逗點，不是永遠結束的句點。<br />我愛你，真愛你，<br />我想我再找不到第二人能讓我這麼打從心底笑，你的可愛，你的孩子氣和特硃的味道<br />你給了我很多美好的記憶，我一輩子不會忘記<br />你不是一個只懂愛自己的人，跟我在一起，我其實看到了你學習去愛人的勇氣<br />我們現在的時間或許錯了，<br />因為原諒我，周圍的壓力讓我很壓抑， 我自己一人沒有足夠的力氣去突破<br />或許，換個環境，我們會相處得很好<br />又或許，讓我不要抱著說謊的心情重新認識你會有一個新的契機<br /><br />如果現在我們的四行淚，能洗出二條對的路<br />對之後的相遇或許是個禮物<br /><br />一直到現在，還是很愛你<br />你說你要保護我....不要食言<br />因為我還是會像以前一樣，對你很雞婆<br />但是接下來，你要守護我，比我照顧你多<br />不管之後，讓你幸福的人是我或是別人我都會祝福你<br />因為你在我生命中曾經那麼重要....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />你是個很好很優秀的人，不要低估了自己，對事情對人都要更積極一點<br />說話要更有自信一點<br />我相信我不會看錯你，你可以比今天更好的！<br />不要躲我，不要總是採取逃避的方式去面對事情...任何事～<br /><br /><br />再一次，很愛你，謝謝你！</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10599869-114190220353574758?l=bewithdipity.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>小鬼的腦袋瓜http://www.blogger.com/profile/05443962532655596706noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10599869.post-1141057188134608172006-02-28T00:06:00.000+08:002006-02-28T00:19:48.156+08:00<span style="color:#ccffff;">莫名地沒耐心</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">莫名的愛生氣</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">這一二天，我的情緒化又來了</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">受苦的，又是悶悶的你</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">我愛你，但卻找不到一個能同時好好愛自己的方法</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">我相信感情需要經營，</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">但是我又是順從自己的人，</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">要好好愛你，和諧相處，我需要改變自己，很多很多</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">我也相信愛需要互相包容及妥協</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">但我雖有大刺刺的個性，卻又極度對”平衡”敏感</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">不斷地對我們之間的相處，在天平上反覆衡量</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">只要是不平衡出現，我就會胡思亂想，心不安定</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">然後會發脾氣........</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">也生自己的氣</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">累積下來，就是疲累與苦澀</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">我愛你，我確定，我真愛你，也心疼你</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">但我不準備這樣完全改變自己</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">我愛你，真愛你，</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">但總覺你離我對未來伴侶的條件有差距</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">我愛你，很愛你，</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">卻不知如何改變這樣的窘境......</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">長期看來，會變怎麼樣....？</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">生活的磨擦，會如何銷噬我們的愛情？</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">說不知道，是否是種逃避的抉擇～？</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;"></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10599869-114105718813460817?l=bewithdipity.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>小鬼的腦袋瓜http://www.blogger.com/profile/05443962532655596706noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10599869.post-1137654875618207802006-01-19T15:10:00.000+08:002006-01-19T15:14:35.630+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffffff;">我想我是愛你的，否則不會抱著你，...就流淚</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffffff;">我承認，有時我已漸漸失去了耐心</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffffff;">因為不斷的包容，我卻找不到渲洩的出口</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffffff;">我想我是很喜歡你的</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffffff;">不然不會每次發完脾氣之後，自己悶了好幾天</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffffff;">之後就窩囊地當作沒事發生</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffffff;">但是這樣下去，好像還是等待下一個惡性的循環</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffffff;">難過的是，你只在意我又生氣了</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffffff;">卻沒想過the reason why</span><br /><span style="font-size:100%;color:#ffffff;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ccccff;"></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10599869-113765487561820780?l=bewithdipity.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>小鬼的腦袋瓜http://www.blogger.com/profile/05443962532655596706noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10599869.post-1137144088183793402006-01-13T17:12:00.000+08:002006-01-13T17:21:28.196+08:00<span style="color:#ccffff;">不知還要有多少冷戰</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">不知還要有幾次爭吵</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">不知還要有幾次算了....這樣就好</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">我又生氣了，你又悶了</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">你一定覺得很委屈，因為你只是開開玩笑</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">我一定覺得很委屈，因為你開玩笑和說話的方式總讓我不開心</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">但我因不想忍耐而責罵了你</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">沒有誰對沒有誰錯</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">是頻率錯了</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">不同的頻率所以搭不上一起</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">雜訊多了，誤會多了，脾氣也就大了</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">其實我也不知道該怎麼辦，如果我們今天只是好友，</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">對彼此沒有那麼大的期望，應該就不會那麼容易失望</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">這個布落格，原本是用來交換甜蜜的心事</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">曾幾何時，它已成了我們對彼此不滿的唯一出口</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;">這種感覺，........該怎麼說呢？</span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ccffff;"></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10599869-113714408818379340?l=bewithdipity.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>小鬼的腦袋瓜http://www.blogger.com/profile/05443962532655596706noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10599869.post-1136043046067420292005-12-31T23:23:00.000+08:002005-12-31T23:30:46.076+08:00<span style="color:#33ff33;">你總很少好好聽我把話說完，</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">好不容易聽完....你總很少去了解我的感受</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">好不容易要求你了解後，你總很少去安撫我的情緒</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">或許對你而言，你覺得太噁心，太刻意......</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">但是對我而言，我很需要，這種關心......</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">我要的，不是你真的要給我很多，而是一種在乎</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">讓我感到你時刻都有想到我，在乎我的感受</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">記得我說過的話，而不是要我自己開口要，你才尬尷的支吾</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">我真疲於你的支支吾吾..........</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">...................................................愛生氣..這句話從你口中說出來形容我，</span><br /><span style="color:#33ff33;">真是格外諷刺也荒腔.....</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10599869-113604304606742029?l=bewithdipity.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>小鬼的腦袋瓜http://www.blogger.com/profile/05443962532655596706noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10599869.post-1135518093077845072005-12-25T21:40:00.000+08:002005-12-26T00:47:17.953+08:00<span style="color:#ffcccc;">很抱歉為你帶來的痛苦～你覺得你做了很多，難過的是，我卻覺得不夠積極或許是我太保護自己，我現在身處的是一個班上人來人往的地方我的一舉一動總是會被觀察著，你找我講話的時機是在上課時，我不想被點名回答問題開完會和下課後，你只想我自動為你留下來，很多事情，你總想我應該要為你怎麼做，但你付出了嗎？現在沒人知道我跟你一起，所以只要是唱歌或是聚餐都是團體行動我多想，在他們面前大聲的說，我要等俊博，我要看他要不要去我要等他吃飯，.......但是我可以嗎？我什麼都不是，我也只能一直忍下來，找空檔趕快跟你聯絡，而你卻還是情緒化的鬧脾氣，說別人沒約你，又要在大家面前裝作若無其事，又要順便提到你，我在幹嘛？我為什麼要把自己搞得那麼忙？或許你我都沒錯，只是認知和期許錯了～你所認為輕視的口氣，只是我已等你的答案等的很不耐煩～我只希望你可以果斷地讓我安心我也很累～</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">也很傷</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">不是只有你想回到那天晚上.......我想等....但總落空</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">你很好，或許是我要求太高～不想你痛苦～</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10599869-113551809307784507?l=bewithdipity.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>小鬼的腦袋瓜http://www.blogger.com/profile/05443962532655596706noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10599869.post-1130435539848206682005-10-28T01:42:00.000+08:002005-10-28T01:56:18.326+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="color:#ffffff;"><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">just review the birthday card that u gave me again....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">i won't give up my dreams......my dreams is my ideal life style,not just only about study abroad.</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">my dreams include my daily life, the people i love and the people who love me..everything..</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">life will not be happy without love and warm from family or relationship....that 's what i think </span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">i won't do something just simply for you , if i do something for you ,that's because that i love to do that, and i need to do this to make me happy. </span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">don't worry~~~i won't make you to be an obstacle in my life.....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">i know u don't like that. this is also the things that i wanna do for you.</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">i won't be trapped because that u don't want me to.</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">......................wordless ........</span></span></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10599869-113043553984820668?l=bewithdipity.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>小鬼的腦袋瓜http://www.blogger.com/profile/05443962532655596706noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10599869.post-1130310400742986302005-10-26T14:48:00.000+08:002005-10-26T15:06:40.750+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">我夢見你，從身邊經過</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">在夢裡都做好準備的動作</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">等愛的心裡，有了一座沙漠</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">等個綠洲，等個盡頭.....</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">等你說你愛我.....好讓這些日子沒白白寂寞過</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">我知道你還沒準備好愛我～或者我也是</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">因我們是彼此的”罪愛”</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">各自背著罪，在這個夏天隱姓埋名..談這場戀愛</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">其實這不是我想要的開始....讓我覺得委屈</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">時間在飛，我的內心卻被拉進過往雲煙的漩渦</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">靈魂呢？要碎成幾千萬遍？我不敢想，不敢數，不敢動，不敢多說一語</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">只怕變真實的夢魘......</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;"></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10599869-113031040074298630?l=bewithdipity.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>小鬼的腦袋瓜http://www.blogger.com/profile/05443962532655596706noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10599869.post-1125586871805250652005-09-01T22:55:00.000+08:002005-09-01T23:01:11.813+08:00<span style="font-family:arial;color:#ff6666;">想哭....卻無聲</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;color:#ff6666;">一直要自己活出一副酷樣</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;color:#ff6666;">處變不驚...從容不迫</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;color:#ff6666;">其實我真的好想好想擺爛大哭在地上打滾</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;color:#ff6666;">然後就可以不要負任何責任</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;color:#ff6666;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;color:#ff6666;">需要擔心和牽掛的事太多了</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;color:#ff6666;">我只想放下....</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;color:#ff6666;">想掙脫.......</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;color:#ff6666;">但我不行....明知極被動的我要強迫自己變成一個極主動開朗的人</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"><span style="color:#ff6666;">人生最痛苦的事也莫過於此<strong>。</strong></span></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10599869-112558687180525065?l=bewithdipity.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>小鬼的腦袋瓜http://www.blogger.com/profile/05443962532655596706noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10599869.post-1125410723023116602005-08-31T12:01:00.000+08:002005-08-30T22:10:20.360+08:00<span style="color:#ffffff;">今天是妮的生日<br />其實在去年，當我知道錯過了妮的生日<br />就暗暗告訴自己，明年要幫妮過生日...<br />妮現在應該很驕傲了吧～聽到這些<br />又要說我那時就已喜歡妮...哼<br />如果可以，希望可以一直停在這裡<br />不要前進<br />妮的手很好牽<br />氣味很甜，讓我覺得安心<br /><br />這次回家去，媽媽得知我的戀情結束時，<br />輕輕但堅定的告訴我：「有天，你一定可以找到一個全世界最重要的人的」<br />我哭了.....<br />那人會是妮嗎？不知道<br />只不過至少有人對我有那樣的信心和耐心相信我能找得到<br />這一路....至少辛苦但不無助<br />後來的我們....會到哪裡沒關係<br />這句話都要陪著你度過每個生日哦<br /><br />愛生氣的妮.......或許會結束，但是這個夏天是永遠不會結束的....<br />這個夏天....很愛妮</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10599869-112541072302311660?l=bewithdipity.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>小鬼的腦袋瓜http://www.blogger.com/profile/05443962532655596706noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10599869.post-1125407922226139582005-08-30T21:01:00.000+08:002005-08-30T21:18:42.236+08:00<span style="color:#ff99ff;">1981年的謊言</span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;">那一刻，周圍的人給了我什麼樣的期許和祝福</span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;">那一刻，自己給自己下了什麼諾言</span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;">那刻起，我開始讓多少人快樂、傷心、失落、絕望，又或是驚喜.....</span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;">都不重要...重要的是我讓多少人感到一絲幸福過？</span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;">一直一直，我都在尋找著渴望的安定，失去的幸福和堅定的依靠.....</span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;">但是從二十歲的初戀結束那天起，我開始懷疑我堅持的信仰..</span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;">之後的戀情斷斷續續，與其說我在玩味人生，倒不如說是自我實驗</span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;">極限在哪？夢想在哪？理想在哪？</span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;">總是提醒自己別忘了順從自己的渴望，但又怕是為了順從而順從的盲目過一輩子</span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;">有時寂莫的發慌，斬轉難眠...</span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;">有時卻極欲掙脫手邊的溫暖，只求有一口冷冷的空氣甚至可以放棄全世界</span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;">有多少人跟我一樣活在反覆的框框裡</span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;">有多少人對我的自以為嗤之以鼻..</span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;">我不以為意.......反骨的自己連我都冷眼</span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;">還需在乎什麼呢？</span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;"></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10599869-112540792222613958?l=bewithdipity.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>小鬼的腦袋瓜http://www.blogger.com/profile/05443962532655596706noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10599869.post-1125409900987569552005-08-29T21:20:00.000+08:002005-08-30T21:51:40.996+08:00<span style="font-family:arial;font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">愛生氣的妮</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">總讓我生氣....</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">如果可以讓你感到一點點幸福的開心</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">我願意盡全力討你歡心</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">但是，這卻和有高自尊的我衝突....</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">為什麼我要低聲下氣？為什麼要寵你？</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">....雖然我總擔心你，像個媽媽嘮叨你</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">你氣我也氣，我氣自己的壞脾氣無處去</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">氣我的理性你不領情....</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">氣自己何必在乎你的小孩子氣</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">氣自己要俗辣又俗不徹底.....</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">告訴你哦～～～</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">我.....</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">一直是個QUEEN......</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;font-size:130%;color:#ffffcc;">寵我吧～狸</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10599869-112540990098756955?l=bewithdipity.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>小鬼的腦袋瓜http://www.blogger.com/profile/05443962532655596706noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10599869.post-1121189536804168342005-07-12T23:52:00.000+08:002005-07-23T23:56:56.526+08:00like u holding my hands<br />like u breathing my breath<br />like the smell on u neck<br />everything everything about u makes me feel complete.......is it too crazy??<br />yeah~too crazy to get u out of my head~~<br />i don't like myself this way~~but what can i say~~?<br />really~~this time........crush and crush on u again....and again...<br />i hate myself being this way~but what can i change?<br />truely.....this time..<br />everyone wanna meet a right person in their life~<br />but how do they know when they meet the guy?<br />i don't know either....<br />only thing i can do is to listen to my heart~all the time as possible as i can do<br />is that u? i don't know it in the long run~~<br />but now? Yes.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10599869-112118953680416834?l=bewithdipity.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>小鬼的腦袋瓜http://www.blogger.com/profile/05443962532655596706noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10599869.post-1120558735907891972005-07-05T18:06:00.000+08:002005-07-06T23:03:02.153+08:00<span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33cc00;">你的溫柔和不捨....常讓我感覺是一種殘酷的拉扯</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33cc00;">當我想起你，心會有點痛痛的，悶悶的</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33cc00;">原本熱鬧環境裡多話的我，又選擇了不語和低頭</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33cc00;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33cc00;">不願多說一句，是因為怕自己會控制不住連日的糾纏情緒</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33cc00;">低頭是為了能第一時間藏住掉下的淚滴....</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33cc00;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33cc00;">在你面前，我只能說我真的很遜.....</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33cc00;">一次又一次到了口邊的離別，你的一口呼吸，讓我下了好多次不再提起的決心</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33cc00;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33cc00;">我的朋友回來後，我可以在表面上裝做若無其事，裝做其實不想你</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33cc00;">但你難道不懂，卸下笑臉後的心情反差是會更嚴重的想念你......</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33cc00;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33cc00;">我希望他們回來嗎？</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33cc00;">希望，因為我很想念他們，他們會讓我更勇敢的去面對沒有你的寂莫</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33cc00;">不希望，因為我很享受有你的一切，享受你帶給我那心酸的浪漫.........豬P</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33cc00;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#33cc00;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#33cc00;"></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10599869-112055873590789197?l=bewithdipity.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>小鬼的腦袋瓜http://www.blogger.com/profile/05443962532655596706noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10599869.post-1119695846106075002005-06-25T18:32:00.000+08:002005-06-25T18:37:26.113+08:00愛上你，但恨透這種思念<br />我是誰？一個極度壞的人<br />只懂追求一時享樂的壞人<br /><br />我恨我愛你，恨我愛上這樣的你<br />我不想再傷人<br />但你的出現讓我墜了再次的輪迴<br />要幾遍？才能完全脫身這個銬了我許久的結<br /><br />我恨我愛你<br />恨我愛上不能停<br />這種曖昧不明讓我窒息<br /><br />天....在看笑話吧....<br />我是個不值得同情的人<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10599869-111969584610607500?l=bewithdipity.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>小鬼的腦袋瓜http://www.blogger.com/profile/05443962532655596706noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10599869.post-1119364458700197732005-06-21T22:20:00.000+08:002005-07-01T02:23:16.583+08:00<span style="color:#33ccff;">其實，一直一直檢視你</span><br /><span style="color:#33ccff;">只要找出一個你的不好，就足矣讓我心安一秒鐘</span><br /><span style="color:#33ccff;">但下一秒.....是再痛一點的掙扎</span><br /><span style="color:#33ccff;">一直告訴自己，沒什麼，其實無謂你的好不好</span><br /><span style="color:#33ccff;">但是今天的心，無預警的刺</span><br /><span style="color:#33ccff;">..........我不是一定要你做什麼，只是我到底算什麼？</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#33ccff;">你的頑皮讓我心軟，只要一個緊緊的捉弄擁抱～</span><br /><span style="color:#33ccff;">一秒鐘，就是安慰了～安慰之前不停的難過愧疚與痛</span><br /><span style="color:#33ccff;">就算反覆，也只想閉著雙眼，告訴自己只要此刻不要變.....</span><br /><span style="color:#33ccff;">那邊的他，怎麼辦？</span><br /><span style="color:#33ccff;">那邊的她，怎麼辦？</span><br /><span style="color:#33ccff;">我是個好壞的人，傷別人，還喊痛........</span><br /><span style="color:#33ccff;">愛上你的我.....沉默</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10599869-111936445870019773?l=bewithdipity.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>小鬼的腦袋瓜http://www.blogger.com/profile/05443962532655596706noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10599869.post-1118576254300372492005-06-12T19:32:00.000+08:002005-06-12T19:37:34.306+08:00<span style="font-family:georgia;color:#cccccc;">hey~i don't know what happen to u and me~</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#cccccc;">hey ~i don't mean it if u think i cheated on something</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#cccccc;">hey~i don't wanna let u down this way~</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#cccccc;">hey~i do cursh on u~i do live in such a torture</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#cccccc;">hey~don't keep that cold to me</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#cccccc;">hey~don't make me cry in this way~though i deserve it, maybe</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#cccccc;">hey'~every moment is true</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#cccccc;">hey~love is something hard to me~but u let me do it simply</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#cccccc;">maybe is time~time to say good bye~</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#cccccc;">sorry about that ~love unacceptable</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#cccccc;"> tearing bye</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10599869-111857625430037249?l=bewithdipity.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>小鬼的腦袋瓜http://www.blogger.com/profile/05443962532655596706noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10599869.post-1118086496709348162005-06-07T03:29:00.000+08:002005-06-07T03:34:56.713+08:00<span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#ffcccc;">i am such a lier~</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#ffcccc;">i cheated!!! cheated on everyone~inclusive of the one i like and the one i crushed~</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#ffcccc;">gosh~~~</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#ffcccc;">what am i doing?</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#ffcccc;">i'd never wanna do this ...i am not that kind of people~</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ffcccc;">god~~~i hate lying~~~~!!</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ffcccc;">this is the biggest lie~i told in the past ten years~i think</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ffcccc;">don't let it be unveiled~pls!</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ffcccc;">i don't mean it</span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ffcccc;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#ffcccc;"></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10599869-111808649670934816?l=bewithdipity.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>小鬼的腦袋瓜http://www.blogger.com/profile/05443962532655596706noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10599869.post-1116595043651413822005-05-20T21:12:00.000+08:002005-07-01T02:16:15.336+08:00<span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#33cc00;">hey,u</span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#33cc00;">much closer, much fear</span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#33cc00;">i am afraid that i lose my control</span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#33cc00;">u are my type,but not my type in some way</span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#33cc00;">that's really confused me~</span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#33cc00;">love ? yea~absolutely</span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#33cc00;">don't wanna love? yea~i hope i can just let u go or maybe u can make me more secured!</span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#33cc00;">why's that? thinking about u all the time</span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#33cc00;">i don't wanna be with you all the time, but i always cheated on myself</span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#33cc00;">that's so not true~</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10599869-111659504365141382?l=bewithdipity.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>小鬼的腦袋瓜http://www.blogger.com/profile/05443962532655596706noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10599869.post-1115322267641507422005-05-06T03:40:00.001+08:002005-07-01T02:12:32.020+08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="color:#ff0000;">hey~if love is just a simple word, i wanna say that to u </span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">love you .....though we don't know each other very well</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">i mean....soul part, u know ~</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">i really wanna be with you </span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">another crush on u</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">i think it will never happen again</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">why's that?</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">but now, we are still unvoiced! right~love so much!</span><br /></span></strong></span><span style="font-family:times new roman;color:#ff0000;"></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10599869-111532226764150742?l=bewithdipity.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>小鬼的腦袋瓜http://www.blogger.com/profile/05443962532655596706noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10599869.post-1114841715664223512005-04-30T14:07:00.000+08:002005-05-20T21:21:59.976+08:00<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;color:#33cc00;">hey u....the unvoiced you in my mind....<br />i can't stop your face showing around me<br />i can't hault your voice sounding around me<br />i can't stop capturing your behaviors in anymoment and keep thinking about it anytime i wish<br />because we are not just us.....we are u and me, two seperated person in some aspects<br />i think you kind of like me<br />and i do too.<br />the reality is why can make it a beautiful story<br />to me ....it's sad~~to hold you not, kiss you not<br />the soundbeat is enlarging gradually.....actually<br />i scared~~how about you ?<br />u with me?<br />this moment ....yes...i do!<br />serendipity....where and when and what will you bring us to~?<br />i wonder~~but look forward it , my prince.</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10599869-111484171566422351?l=bewithdipity.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>小鬼的腦袋瓜http://www.blogger.com/profile/05443962532655596706noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10599869.post-1113492890325147342005-04-14T23:33:00.000+08:002005-04-14T23:41:09.546+08:00<span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#99ffff;"><strong>u will never know my reason why i won't go to U.S.A</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#99ffff;"><strong>it's hard to speak out </strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#99ffff;"><strong>i am just don't wanna shock what am i in your mind~</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#99ffff;"><strong>i just wanna keep the thing and feeling right now</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#99ffff;"><strong>i think it's the best way to our friendship</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#99ffff;"><strong>u ask me "you don't wanna go?"</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#99ffff;"><strong>oh yes~the hundred eleven yes!</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#99ffff;"><strong>but i think i should stop dreaming like a unrealistic day dreamer</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#99ffff;"><strong>the fact is the fact </strong></span><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#99ffff;"><strong>like this~</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#99ffff;"><strong>don't push me say it out to you</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#99ffff;"><strong>i thank you so much to hope me joining your trip~</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#99ffff;"><strong>that's really nice~i appreciate~and that's what treasure to me, much more wonderful than the trip!</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#99ffff;"><strong>i won't waste my time~i will keep living,</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#99ffff;"><strong>keep breathing~</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#99ffff;"><strong>thanks for everything god gives to me!</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#99ffff;"><strong>i won't give in! the stronger is the only thing u will see!</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#99ffff;"><strong><br /></strong></span><span style="font-family:courier new;font-size:130%;color:#99ffff;"><strong></strong></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10599869-111349289032514734?l=bewithdipity.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>小鬼的腦袋瓜http://www.blogger.com/profile/05443962532655596706noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10599869.post-1107441186459117482005-02-03T22:09:00.000+08:002005-02-03T23:06:41.296+08:00<span style="color:#ffcc33;"><span ><em>barely taking note of my emotion and feeling...</em> <br />when i decided putting them on in words...that's not a good sign~ <br />Warming!!! <br />i think i sould grow-up after so many things,especially for the "relationship" <br />the true is, i am not! <br />i just postpone the breakout time, that's all. <br />sometimes, the thing what should happen has to happen after all. <br />depression just makes things more terrible~ <br />God, what am i doing now? i just walk the same steps... <br />i wanna stop, but the brakes doesn't work apparently. <br />Stop playing jokes on me~ <br />though the strange and magic romantic thing makes me excited! <br /></span></span><div align="right"><span style="font-family:courier new;color:#cc0000;"><strong>Paradoxparadise</strong></span></div> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10599869-110744118645911748?l=bewithdipity.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>小鬼的腦袋瓜http://www.blogger.com/profile/05443962532655596706noreply@blogger.com0